Tuesday, August 17, 2021

A conversation

1: There are a few things worse than pain. 

2: Like what?

1: Death

2: Death? But death is a welcomed reprieve from pain and suffering. Death is not worse, death is a comfort. 

1: No, I mean the death of pain. The death of pain is worse than pain when you still exist. 

2: How so?

1: When you feel pain, you know something is not right, and that something must be done, that there must be something more than this. 

2: And you think that's preferable than not feeling pain at all? No one likes pain though. 

1: And yet all growth is painful. And growth is necessary. It is still better to feel pain than none at all. To not feel pain while breathing is to not have lived while living. Is it not so?

2: Then why live at all if all it has is pain? 

1: Oh no. We do not live to feel pain, we feel pain because we live. In a broken world with broken people, it is inevitable that we feel and cause pain. Yet, people are still worth knowing beyond that, aren't they? 

2: I guess. Then why don't we just choose physical death, to just end it all? 

1: Even death does not spare others of pain, even ourselves. There will be those who will mourn us, and we, if after death, can we truly say we do not have regrets? Perhaps, it is better to die, knowing you have tried to live well. 

2: And so you conclude? 

1: I will try again, even if it may possibly be painful. Yes, I will try again.  

Those Days...

There are days when it seems that

the heart beats ever so slow

until it stops.

Breathe.

That the instruments play but

there is 

no music

That you sing but

there is 

no 

song

You want to curl up and wait

Seeing your light, flame, life leave the body

until it is

stone cold

Death seems like a comfort

but death would not come 

And you have to wake up again 

the next day

And hope and pray to God to reignite

the Spark

to keep on living

Better days are ahead

Better days are ahead

Better days will come

They must.


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Take heart

Let His love lead us through the night

Hold on to hope

Take courage again

- Take Heart, Hillsong